Friday, 1 February 2013
Beyonce Opens Up On Her Miscarriage
Beyonce has opened up about her heartbreaking miscarriage for the first time, it was revealed on Thursday.
The 31-year-old, who is married to rapper Jay-Z, addresses the tragedy in her upcoming HBO documentary, Life Is But a Dream.
She suffered the loss several years before the birth of her daughter Blue Ivy in January 2012.
'About two years ago, I was pregnant for the first time,' she says in a preview.
'And I heard the heartbeat, which was the most beautiful music I ever heard in my life.'
'I picked out names,' she recalls.
'I envisioned what my child would look like.. I was feeling very maternal.'
She lost the child in the early stages of her pregnancy.
'I flew back to New York to get my check up - and no heartbeat,' she says.
'Literally the week before I went to the doctor, everything was fine, but there was no heartbeat.'
The star, who married Jay-Z in April 2008, turned to music to help her get through her pain.
'I went into the studio and wrote the saddest song I've ever written in my life,' she says, but doesn't name the track.
'And it was actually the first song I wrote for my album.
'And it was the best form of therapy for me, because it was the saddest thing I've ever been through.'
OUR BABY HEARTACHE AND JOY
Jay-Z first revealed Beyonce suffered a miscarriage in his track Glory, which he wrote after the birth of Blue Ivy in January 2012.
The lyrics included: 'Last time the miscarriage was so tragic/We was afraid you'd disappear/But nah baby you magic'
Her husband Jay-Z first referenced the miscarriage in Glory, a track recorded within days of Blue's birth in January 2012.
Beyonce was thrilled when she discovered she was pregnant again in 2011 and found it hard to keep the news to herself to begin with.
'Being pregnant was very much like falling in love. You are so open. You are so overjoyed.
'There's no words that can express having a baby growing inside of you, so of course you want to scream it out and tell everyone.'
In one scene, she confides: 'I felt the baby kick for the first time. Kicked five times.'
After cautiously keeping the pregnancy a secret, she finally revealed her bump in spectacular fashion at the MTV Video Music Awards in August 2011.